Some failure is inevitable...

... but not necessarily excusable. As of my last post I had already purchased 1 pair of shoes 4 days earlier. Then, just 3 days later, 2 items on my Wait List of an online store I regularly shop, came available. I justified one of the items as it is a coat for one of the girls for fall. Not only that but it might be a little big this year and will likely fit her next year AND since it is a denim jacket, a rather versatile piece, I can pass it on to her younger sister in a couple of years without having to worry about the style.

But, the other item, the more expensive item I purchased was a skirt for me. Granted it is really to wear to work but still. Well, we are so incredibly close for the next 2 weeks that I have opted to not go with the meal plan for this week since it requires purchasing so many items that we don't already have. We have plenty of food to get us through most of the week until I get paid on Wednesday anyway.

The bad thing is, I was anticipating that only the jacket would ship quickly, as the skirt said it wouldn't ship for 2-3 weeks. I got an e-mail this morning that the whole order has shipped and we simply can't afford it right now. I can't stop it and I can't even return it for a refund, only a store credit. So, it's really a moot point now.

I have to get on track here. I am having a really hard time committing to this. I want to have a savings account that has enough money in the event that my husband doesn't get his monthly bonus that we depend on. At one point there was 3 months worth of what we need out of the bonus to make ends meet but now there's not even half of one month.

I have to focus on the goal. I have to commit to making it happen. I have to, for me, my family and our sanity.