I have been feeling very disappointed with myself lately. I have mixed feelings about the choices I have made in the last 10 years (if you know me, I know, but let’s not go there…). A part of me would really like to go back and change things: finishing high school; going to class in college; finishing college; going on to law school (yes, that was my original plan); being able to play numerous piano works; and being completely self sufficient.
On the other hand I have had wonderful things happen in my life as a result of the decisions I made, however juvenile, inappropriate and/or unwise. I have 3 beautiful, and I mean beautiful, (not that I’m biased or anything of the sort), a loving husband, a fantastic extended family, many supportive friends and a good job that I actually enjoy.
As I reflect on these things and the ideas I had 5-10 years ago about where I would be, what I would be doing and what I would have accomplished, I can’t help but feel a smidgen of disappointment in myself.
Since this is the beginning of a brand new year and the count-down to being the big 3-0 (Didn’t you hear? 30 is the new 20!), I have made the “30 Before 30” list; I know, how very cliché of me. I have opted to focus on this rather than my very short list of 2010 resolutions, of which I will also divulge for your entertainment.
- Work out 3 days per week.
- Get up when my alarm goes off.
- Don’t sleep in until or both days of the weekend.
- Encourage my husband to socialize more.
- Save a 1-month buffer ($4,500 minimum)
- Pay off all credit cards by June 1.
- Track spending in YNAB weekly.
- Learn something new.
- Make/create a compost bin and garden.
- Do a monthly house project.
I started out with a much smaller list, but have since added a few things. I think that all of these are do-able in the next 12 months or by their respective deadlines. Only a small percentage of people stick to their New Year’s resolutions past March, if they even make it that long, mainly because they make them to difficult to accomplish. I know that I won’t succeed at each of these all the time and I’m okay with that. But, I also know that I have something to strive for and that’s better than not trying at all.
Now for “The List.” I will review a few of the goals every few days. So here goes:
Pay off all debt: I know a lot of people want to pay off all of their debt, but I really think that we can actually accomplish this in the next 5 years. It will take some hard work and perseverance but I truly think that it can be done.
Get a degree: Most people would think that getting a bachelor’s degree in 5 years is reasonable; well, not if you have young children and a full time job. I can barely, and by “barely” I mean almost never, get the laundry done in a timely manner, not to mention the 10,000 other things that we’re supposed to do on a daily basis. I can’t fathom trying to be a full-time student as well. I know people do it, but I cannot voluntarily subject myself to that much stress.
Go camping: I have never actually been camping. I’ve done it halfway, where you stay in the pop-up trailer/tent thing and have facilities to use. I want to really “do it” but I don’t know if I could handle not having a bathroom. I’ll gladly sleep in a tent though! We never did things like this when I was a kid and sometimes I think I might have missed out; on the other hand, maybe I’ll hate it and thank my parents for not subjecting me to such horrors. We’ll see.